It doesn’t get any easier, no matter how many times you have had to do it before. Trying to let go of something that once made you happy and accepting the fact that all it is ever going to be is just memories. It’s no longer hanging on to the past and looking forward to the future. But it’s not forgetting, it’s accepting life as it is. It’s simply moving on.
There are some things I need to start putting back in my regular routine/regime:
>Reading. I haven’t read anything for personal entertainment in so long. I’ve been trying to but with this LIT class I’m taking this year it’s hard. Plus I’ve been watching a lot more television, so I’ll need to be cutting back on that. >Writing. College papers have been consuming most of my actually writing. I can’t remember the last time I wrote a poem or simply recapped my day/week. I need to keep up with this because I to be able to show my children who I was and how I came to be. It’s always been a little dream of mine to hand my journals over to my children when they get into high school. As a, here’s a hard copy of me, read it and don’t try to use my excuses since I already used them lol. >French. I want to be fluent. So I must work harder. I may not like my teacher but she doesn’t matter, my goal does. I love the language and I have dreams of having my children brought up in a two language household. >Running. I also started working out, so I want to keep up with that. While I’m living downtown though I want to start running by the docks in the morning. Just to remind my self of how beautiful life is and can be.
I don’t have extravagant dreams per se, but these dreams of mine mean the world to me.