Not the poster child for living a carefree happy life, but sometimes I wonder why people are so angry? Not sad, just downright mad. Everyday there will be some form of injustice going on. Life will never be perfect. Yes life can get you down, annoying and yes make you a little angry. Letting that anger consume you is just as bad as letting sadness consume you. Acting as if everything that happens in your life is some sort of personal vendetta against you is not the way to live. The best way to get over an injustice, of whatever kind, is to live and live well. You won’t change anything in your life by being angry and cynical. To change things, this won’t happen overnight either, you have to educate yourself and actually do something to enact the change you want to see. Believing things will get better is a great place to start. No it’s not easy, but being angry is rotting your spirit everyday you let them win.
Live, and live well.
These are not action words. These are excuses. These words deliberately put off action. These are probably the words used the most. Why? Because it is so easy to put things off to the side, behind the winter clothes in the basement closet. Just because something is easy, doesn’t make it good. Being lazy is easy, but it is in no way good for you. Easy is a level, not the destination.
I am obsessed with tomorrow, someday (less so), later, and eventually (which actually means never, think about it). I allowed myself to think that time was on my side; my hope was in a false idea. “The trouble is, you think you have time (Buddha)” is a quote I found shortly after my grandmother passed away. It struck me as soon as I read it, and it knocked me down the first time I said it and mean it. I’ve learned to not put too much stock into time, because time simply doesn’t last.
I’m going to take action. I’m going to turn my tomorrow/someday into today and my later/eventually in to now. Procrastination was my middle name but I’m going to actively change that aspect of myself. I am going to take action. This comes with saying what I mean, and backing it up. I will do it or I won’t, it has to become that simple.
Changing your word choice and actually meaning it can have the biggest impact on your life.
I have nothing against PDA. When I was younger, PDA might as well have been my middle name. This was also a time when that was how you showed your “love.” Being 21 and a senior in college, my definition of PDA has changed to fit what I’m comfortable with displaying to the world. All the groping and trying to swallow each other whole just is not my scene anymore.
My definition of PDA involves light touches and kisses. It almost always happens by accident. The light touch of a hand on the small of my back, the peck on my forehead, the head resting on my backside, and the slight grip on my waist all of these count as PDA to me. Not to mention the subtly of these acts make them that much more alluring.
"How many moments in your life can you point to and say, ‘That’s when it all changed?’"
Everyone has that moment when they don’t feel like they’re enough. I am having said moment. It has a lot to do with family and friends, but more so it has to do with me. I really need to give certain social networks a rest. I mean completely just hit the ignore button on the whole thing. I need to stop living vicariously through other people. I really need to do some living. I really think it’s about time for that. So no more waiting for others or for better timing, I’m just gonna do shit. I’m so tired of feeling like I’m just there. I want to be and I want to do. Everyone has their own little epiphany moment, mine may be a little late but it’s here. It’s time to feel good, don’t you think. It’s about time I find my passion, I just hope I don’t have a passion for sitting around.